Four days in to the second round of chemo and we are following the same pattern as last time, which basically means a pretty crappy first week. He looks terrible , is fighting constant nausea and seems to have aged 40 years. The new anti-sickness drugs don’t seem to be any better , but then again he isn’t actually throwing up , and he is managing to eat , so things could be even worse.
When he isn’t feeling ill , he’s sleeping, trying to make up for lost sleep at night when the nausea keeps him awake. Effectively we are poisoning him, just hoping the bad cells get poisoned more quickly. We knew this first six months would be tough and we were right.
The additional challenge with mesothelioma , is that it’s terminal not curable. At times he wonders if this is worth it, I daren’t tell him about others who are at their third or even fourth rounds , I am constantly terrified he is going to call it a day at any time, we have another 4 sessions of this course.
On a positive note, last time, week two did show a definite improvement ( although there were nosebleeds to contend with) , so hopefully this will be the case again.